April 9th/2026
Welcome to my life journey, stories, heartbreak, and so much more.
I’m sitting in a coffee shop with a heavy heart and mind while I wait for my spawn to be done at her weekly guide meeting. Having gone through the sadest break up I believe I have ever had, (maybe later I’ll expand on this chapter) having just turned forty, and having to move back into my apartment with my little girl I’m at a point in my life that I just feel so lost and I don’t know what to do.
I’m aware that it’s not just me that goes through hard times, that everyone has their moments and makes mistakes I just thought I would start a blog and start righting out my thoughts and feelings.
I use the app Finch and it helps me stay on top of things (I highly recommend this app to help you keep a good schedule and routine for one’s self if you keep your mind to it it helps a lot) I have a spot where it says write a journal entry everyday. Considering what I just went through and how I feel I want to express myself in words as it’s the one thing I’m good at (kinda)
So here is a chapter that will introduce me to you. If you’re willing to listen. And maybe we can have some fun here.
So a little about me.
I’m a 40 year old woman that has seen my share of abuse and heart ship.. I’m not going to just puke that on here things can come out slowly. I have a beautiful daughter that’s a spitting image of me through and through, I have hobbies…. ADHD too so I have many half projects lol I enjoy cramming my brain full of useless knowledge that I’ll never use, even tho my brain picks what it wants to remember, everything art, old antiques and farming.. I like ducks.
There’s a whole world inside this odd woman and I feel that sharing some of it can build a community of love and not hate, creative ideas and helpful people. It also gives me something to do and get my mind off of things.
Today was a day of unpacking all the garbage bags items and sorting all my stuff back into the original places it once sat. I almost lost my apartment, but got it back cause I have some beautiful people that have come into our lives that have known us for 9 years. The home I almost lost was my daughters almost birth place… I said we should give birth in the hospital cause people need to sleep lol our walls have no sound proofing. I’m very happy that we got our home back God bless those people in question.
Now it’s time to heal and unpack again. We have a lot of work ahead of us but we will be strong and grow past this. Everyone goes through tough times we just need to learn and grow. I’m a complete mess inside as I feel every emotion possible to the human race all at once, it’s an icky feeling. Today was the first day I ate food in five days (I live off of coffee) and I had an icky tummy and didn’t feel like puking but now when I put food in my mouth I have muscle spasms in the roof of my mouth and I hate that.
The sun is going down and it’s almost time to pick up the kiddo, head home and end the day. If your reading this and your having a hard time with something in your life I got a bit of advice from this old fart that’s been through a lot
Keep going, never give up
You will get through it, everyone has moments
Have support friends they will be there to catch you
Always find the happy cause let’s face it life is too short and death is forever till the world ends… I don’t want to feel sad and poopy when my time comes cause that will prob be the last way I’ll ever feel and get stuck like that … Lol like the faces you made your mom and she told you it’s going to stick like that lol.
Keep smiling and I will write a chapter another time.
~The Victorian Lady
The Victorian Lady 